hi sweet peas
Firstly, I am so sorry I haven’t been especially active on my blog recently – as I’m sure you can all relate to, school has been so busy!!
Today I wanted to do a mental health chat.
Recently I’ve had something upsetting happen socially, and today was probably the worst day, because for the first time in a long time, I had a panic attack. It was pretty scary, but despite what you may be thinking, I’m actually pretty ok now; in fact I’m in last period German!! 😀 My mum picked me up from school, and we went out for lunch with my dad, and I started feeling a lot better. and before that my friends had literally caught me when I fell, and had stood by my side and helped me.
I realised something today when I was feeling pretty horrible and sad: good seems to always outweigh the bad. because despite the fact that there had been some upsetting events leading up to the panic attack, afterwards I had so many amazing people there for me, and the one person who was making me upset didn’t seem to hold any power anymore. A year ago I wrote in my diary “I still marvel at how amazing people are, and how blessed I have been to be surrounded by so many kind people, who have helped me with no expectation of material reward”. It’s so true, and reminded me that I am lucky. and I am so grateful.
After it all happened I prayed a little bit – I know not all of you are religious, but you probably understand when I say that I hoped that nothing horrible happened to my friends, and those who have shown me kindness. But I also prayed that the person who had upset me would sort out what was happening to them, and they would be shown guidance.
So thank you, all of you, for helping me have this space that I feel I can come to, and be honest, and receive guidance and support in my life. thank you to those of you reading this from my offline life, it makes me feel so grateful to know you lot are reading it 🙂 I am so grateful for my life.
I hope you are all having an amazing day, and that if you aren’t, you finish the day well, and that you know that things will improve 🙂
Love you all,