OK lads, serious chat, and one that’s been playing on my mind for probably the last blogging while (6 months?), and unsurprisingly a moment that everyone has with most ventures in life.
The reality is, have I outgrown my blog?
I don’t think so, but I do think I’m in a bit of a rut where I need to consider, very much so, where I’m headed. And why.
Let’s chat statistics. Fun statistics, not exam, the end-of-my-brain-cells statistics sort. My views? Well, let’s say it’s very hard to gauge where exactly I should be, but if I were relying on views alone this blog would be long gone. Long. But I’m not, I’m not a fame chaser, and I genuinely am writing here, right at this second, because I love having this online space where I get to publish the random ramblings of my brain. But, whilst it’s nice to know that I do get views, it still gets to me, and most people my age do have a moment or two of fixation upon the stats.
My goal is to do this gap year, go get my degree in journalism, and then… Be a journalist! Hurrah! And so in a way I suppose this is a kind of warm up for that future, misty, unbeknownst to me, part of my life.
But I’ve not outgrown it. I do think I need to rethink my goal, my dream, my hopes for this spot. Because I can pump out hundreds of posts and get zero response, and just feel crappier , or I can keep writing what I want when I want, and then I hope that those of you who come here and resonate with this voice, my written voice, will stay. No matter how lousy I am at sticking to a blog schedule.
So this is a complete jumble, but I hope not entirely incoherent. I’m not leaving, I’m not ditching. I’m not giving this place up. But I’m thinking, I’m rethinking, I’m planning and reflecting, and I’m excited to bring you guys along with me, into what will most likely be a whole new era of Lui Maria.
Until next time,